Archive for July, 2013

I believe that looking to tomorrow can be quite dangerous and positively destructive. I mean if we all wait for tomorrow to come nothing ever would get done.

Take me for example. The motorbike lessons, wanting to write a book, learn to draw, paint, learn to read and play music. Travel the world even. If I wait until tomorrow to start any of these activities then I would go a life time without doing any of them.

It’s so easy to put things of until tomorrow especially when any of them requires a lot of effort.
Now I bet you think I now am going to tell you about the motorbike lesson that I’ve had this week or the trip that I’ve booked.
Well you’d be wrong. Because I haven’t sorted a single riding lesson out nor have I booked a holiday of any kind. I guess you can say I am starting out small.

Whenever I think of the things I want to do it can be overwhelming and can lead to a lot of fears of many different kinds. I think it’s better to say: right now I am going to______
You have to do things in small stages. Hey a great artist or painter had to start with lessons and an orchestra violinist or great guitar player had to learn the very basics first. I guess I’m trying to say you have to learn to walk before you can run.

I am in no way backing out of any of the big things. Right now after uploading this blog I am going to do some more research on motorbike lessons in my area. After which I am going to look at some more prices of violins. (I am waiting to see how much money my phone provider is going to take out of my bank account on the second of the month. You still have to be realistic.)
If I did not do my research today, then when I know the state of my finances I will be in a passion to do something about it.

So it is perilous to wait until tomorrow because I would just keep on waiting. I would know precisely how much I have got and a whole month would go by and I would have done nothing to achieve my ultimate dreams, and I would keep on waiting because I would do something about it tomorrow.


No More

There is so much I want to achieve from life and there is nothing like a good movie to make you aspire to more and make you realise how much you want to do and have. It puts you in complete fantasy land. I know this, I have always known this and it doesn’t normally take me to long to realise it’s a dream and to bring myself back to earth.

I’ve watched Last Holiday tonight. Oh gosh what a way to do a Last Holiday. I keep thinking that I want that! I want to do that! But I don’t want to wait until the very end to do that. I don’t want to waste my life waiting until the last possible moment.

Oh but it’s scary. Just going for it feet first, everything costs money…a lot of it. I can’t wait until I’ve won the lottery though I will continue to play it. (Well you do have to be in it to win it.) It’s just I know I can’t just sit on my ass and wait for life to come to me. I know it’s going to take some planning but I am going to really start to take charge of my life.

I know I’ve said things like this before and made all sorts of promises but I’ve only been cheating myself by not sticking to it. I am going to achieve my dreams and I’m going do them all on my terms. No waiting around for other people to sort them out for me.

That has always been my problem. Waiting for things to happen, waiting for others to organize things. That’s not happening from now on that is no longer me. No more.


Isn’t it weird how we all want to accumulate stuff and we have to have stuff but we never seem to have enough money to get all the stuff we just so have to have. Yet when your birthday gets nearer and you stop buying things for yourself and you get asked what it is you want for said birthday….blank.

Don’t get me wrong I know I want a new violin and an electric guitar oh a laptop and motorbike lessons…
it’s just they are really expensive things right? And I wouldn’t feel right asking for any of those things. I’ll sort out those things myself. (Especially the motorbike lesson 😉 and I will keep you up to date on that little adventure as it progresses.)

But I know I will pout (inwardly to myself) if I don’t get anything to open on the day and all my mum gets me is a trip to the cinema and guitar lessons which I’m sure I don’t need because I’m pretty sure that I know the basics. I’m sure also that I can take it from there. Not that I will be ungrateful if that’s what she does get me because they are cool presents. It’s just not something I want for my birthday.

I want books, music, DVDs and music sheets. But I can’t think of anything in particular of that lot that I just have to have. That’s the thing about stuff we don’t actually need it. It’s just a wanting and when it’s within arm’s reach you find that you no longer want it any more.

I occasionally find myself motivated to do something completely different and other times to do something which I had on the back burner for a long while.

For instance I am slowly but surely mastering the basics of guitar and in a few weeks’ time when my new bow arrives I will re teach myself the basics of violin playing; Since I have not picked it up since primary school, but which I feel completely compelled to master all of a sudden.

Also I have always wanted to learn to ride a motorbike and one day do route 66. But that was something to do a long time into the future. But yesterday evening I finally found someone who also always wanted to do this.

So put four years on the clock. Because I need to learn to ride and save up enough money in order to do this thing, and from what I figure I have to have had a licence for at least a year. I have an idea in mind and I am going to see it through. It’s going to be expensive I know but it’s a once in a life time thing that I’ve always wanted to do.

route 66                                  Motorbike